It was a warm summer day, and I found myself in a familiar place again, both physically and mentally.
As I was walking around the small lake, I felt this pulling in my emotions that was strong. This feeling had become stronger over the previous few months, to the point where I could no longer ignore it.
I felt as if God was calling me to make a drastic change in my career. One that was far from what I would typically do.
After 12 years in my very time consuming career, God was calling me to step away so I could support my wife with her career.
It was not the part of supporting my wife and her career that was the issue for me, it was stepping away from my financial contributions to our family that was the major issue.
This particular walk around the lake was different however. Unlike times in the past where the idea was a passing thought, this time it was a feeling that was far too strong to ignore. As I walked, I began asking God for direction. If the path that I was on was not the path he wanted me on, I asked the Lord to guide me.
Around this time, my wife and I were in a couples small group at Church and I had it on my heart to share with the other couples what I had been feeling. The moment I shared it with the other couples I knew that this calling from God was something that I could not walk away from.
Over the next few months, I had similar conversations with God, really trying to grasp the idea of walking away from my career and all of the anxiety that came with the thought of leaving. This was not easy and something I did not take lightly, but what God placed on my heart was far too strong to walk away from.
One evening I was sitting at the dining room table and I told my wife that I had a few recruiters reaching out to me about beginning a career in Life Insurance. After discussing it with my wife, we agreed that it was something I should look into.
The next day I found myself on a call with a recruiter and before we got off the phone, I told him I was in. Wait, what? This was something I could never see myself doing before. One quick conversation was not the norm for me.
During our discussion, we talked about me starting part time and then working my way to full time, but after breaking a rib and having some time off to think about it, I now had the idea to jump all in, head first, without a safety net.
This idea had me so far out of my comfort zone that I found myself diving into scripture and many conversations with God about what was happening. I had fears, doubts, and insecurities. I was arguing with God, pleading with God, but everything I studied and every conversation with God led to me leaving my previous career with only the faith that God would catch me to rely on.
What was about to happen and the journey that I was about to begin was one of the most painful periods of spiritual growth in my life, but also the most amazing.
It was during this time that I learned among many other things to Trust The Process !!!!!
Until Next Time...
